Hey, surprise! I am actually not dead. Well literally speaking. I survived high school, at points it seemed to be by the skin of my teeth. One of the only IB students not to receive honours. Now I have been in Grant MacEwan University with marking barely passing and thinking, am I really cut out for this? No idea what I am going to do. Have a friend considering suicide, and I am not helping. That is weighing deeply on my soul, I am not sure what to do about it. I am also incredibly tired.

Now I know I have said it before, and I will say it again, I hopefully should have some art done in December. Getting a new touchscreen computer as well as the new Adobe CS4 suite. I can draw right on the screen! So it should work out a little bit better. Heck it makes even Microsoft Paint easier! On top of that going to work on my photography a bit. I do have some sweet photos to be uploaded already after an incredibly misty night during the summer. Now we got our first real snowfall, so maybe some more opportunities.

I am also working on destressing my life a little. Still with my girlfriend Kyla and though we have had some rough patches things are going alright. I am fairly confident she still loves me, and I still love her. I do feel like my life s missing something though and I wish I knew what it was.

Lost my Zune player so I have been seriously music deprived. Just bought(/recieved as an Early Christmas gift) a new one, so that is pretty cool! Get it in around a week so maybe that will help. Also begun the Christmas music a bit so that may lift my mood a tad.

Also since before I have finally acquired a taste for a alcohol. Not bad, sometimes a good pick me up. But holy cow is it expensive.

Looking at spending parts of December being relaxed and creative. Whether it be gaming till the wee hours of the morning, being artistic, watching anime shows I haven't seen in years or simply just relaxing I hope to make the most of it.

I still owe CreativeRawr an art trade, and now deciding on how best to do that. So far I am thinking of not doing poetry surprising enough but actual artwork. We will see how that works.

Also thinking of trying to do Vector work, but we will see if that is simply more words in the wind.

Oh and in case anyone was wondering this is the gaming list for December (combined with the new computer, and open to new games) in any random order:
-Sonic and the Dark Knight
-Enchanted Arms
-Starcraft
-Gmod
-Other Steam Games
-Spider-Man: Web of Shadows
-Some Online Xbox multiplayer
-Resistance: Fall of Man
-Prototype(?) [If money permits]
-Pokemon Diamond [Have MANY hours at the airport one day]

That about sums up my evening tonight, so farewell!